Scruff’s Top 5

This week i’m going to discuss self motivation; believing in yourself. I struggle with it, though I get the gigs, and wedding referrals are constant, I still struggle with the confidence factor, knowing that I am doing a good job. In my mind it might be a fear, or even being too close to that grey area of ego and confidence. I’m not sure what the actual cause is, but I know that it’s real, and if I can get over that hump things might really take off. Now, that’s what I hope, but who knows how long it will take before i’m DJing full time, my music gets some more recognition. I know it will happen at  some point, but how can I assume that I am where i’m at just because I don’t look in the mirror everyday and say something motivating.

I battle back in forth with it, maybe i’m where i’m at because that’s all I can handle for the time being, maybe my ego would be too much if I accelerated any faster, maybe I need to learn a little more humility. I focus on my ego because I hope its not due to the fact that I don’t believe in myself as much as I should. I know I believe in what i’m doing, I see the results and they are looking good, but i’m not satisfied. I know that I can do better, and I can’t expect anyone else to do the work for me. I’ve read that as you get older your drive slows down, the things you eat can manipulate your productivity, your environment, amounts of sleep, etc. I’m tired of using any of those things as excuses, I want my drive to grow, my goals to be accomplished, my confidence in my work to increase.

So in order to start in that direction I took some steps to eliminate some excuses from my life. I went out and bought some men’s daily vitamins to start my day off. I’m reading some self help books, and focusing on me. It’s easy for me to motivate someone else. Not trying to toot my own horn, but i’m good at helping my friends and family find that inner spark. Now it’s time to ignite my spark, my energy, my destiny. For the next month before I leave my house i’ll be looking in the mirror, saying something positive and encouraging. Turning off the garbage on T.V. unless its educational, reading more books to stimulate my mind, eating at home 90% of the time. These are only small things but the momentum I honestly believe that I can get from doing these things will not only boost my confidence, but it will hopefully spark some more creativity, and a more determined work ethic. I’ll keep updating as the month goes on, I having a feeling that this is just the beginning of a lifestyle transformation. 

  1. Goat Talk – T-pain Ft. Lil Wayne
  2. Rule The World – 2 Chainz Ft. Ariana Grande 
  3. They Call Me – Matroda 
  4. Red Light Green Light – Duke Dumont ft Shaun Ross
  5. Don’t Stop – Styline, Mr. Sid & Dave Ruthwell

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